Twas the night before my surgery and all thru my mind,
Not a single ounce of worry, not even a whine
I sit on my bed, pondering the faithfulness of God,
My heart can not contain, and breaks forth in laud.
As I look back in the trials I've been so blessed,
I know Christ has died for me; He is my best!
I can rest in His faithfulness and care for me tonight
For nothing is greater than His strength and might
Interestingly enough I didn't plan for a poem or sonnet as I wrote this update; it's been years since I've dabbled in the arena of rhymes but the above verses came so easily that I thought, "hey why not!"
I find myself in another eve before surgery and as I remember the other times I've tried to prepare myself for surgery, I have more peace going into this one. I can't say that I've fully learned to trust in Christ with all my anxieties, but I can tell you that I've learned to stop fighting His Will.
I had hoped to go into detail of the most recent events but frankly I'm physically worn out; I've been hit with allergies equally in comparison to the ones I've had in the mainland and I'm wiped out. But I did want to testify in God's faithfulness in giving me direction as to this surgery and also helping me guard my heart and mind from anxieties that would have intensified this trial even more. To God be the glory!
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Thursday, May 26, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
The Peace that Surpasses All.....Cancer?
It seems hard to utter the words "peace" and "cancer" in the same sentence; these words are more antagonistic rather than accede to each other but I can testify that, with Christ and only in Christ, can one have peace in the midst of having cancer.
In all honesty, I thought I was done with this word but it seems fitting for God to allow me to once again go thru this trial. A couple of weeks ago, my doctor ordered me to have an ultrasound as a precaution and if the scan came out normal, I wouldn't have to see my Oncologist but once a year. It was a blessing in disguise because during that scan, the doctor found 2 tumors in my left ovary; my right ovary was taken out almost 2 years ago because of ovarian cancer. Unfortunately they can't confirm that this is actually cancer again, but because of my past history, it high probability that it is cancer.
The news was another set back for myself personally as I was ready to close this chapter of my life - the Cancer Chapter - but God has seen fit to allow me to continue this journey. Although it was devastating initially, God has reminded me that He cares for me. The very same verses that ministered to my soul during my first episode of cancer and also the passing of my sweet daughter, has comforted and shielded my heart and guarded my mind from things not Christ honoring; the fear, the despair, the frustration was kept at bay by the very words of God.
Not to mention the abundant blessings that are attached to this trial: One is that God has lead my doctor to be thorough with initiating the scan itself; she didn't need to but praise God she did, otherwise they would not have detected the tumor. Another blessing is that the tumor is only less than half an inch big and this is "the earliest they would have been able to detect the tumor." (Direct quote from my doctor.) Since ovarian cancer is hard to detect until it's too late, this is a miracle in itself. The third blessing is that Mike and I have been praying about what course of action we needed to take in ensuring my health in regards to possibly the cancer coming back; we had leaned on the side of removing my other ovary as a precaution but wanted to wait on the Lord - well basically He's answered that for us.
On June 3rd (tentatively), I will go under the knife once more - Lord willing the last time - to remove my ovary and possibly my uterus. I really didn't want to go under the knife again but to ensure and have peace of mind, God has given us the peace to proceed with this procedure. Thankfully, it will be an out-patient laprascopic type of procedure. I covet your prayers in wisdom for the doctors and a speedy recovery for myself. To God be the glory!
In all honesty, I thought I was done with this word but it seems fitting for God to allow me to once again go thru this trial. A couple of weeks ago, my doctor ordered me to have an ultrasound as a precaution and if the scan came out normal, I wouldn't have to see my Oncologist but once a year. It was a blessing in disguise because during that scan, the doctor found 2 tumors in my left ovary; my right ovary was taken out almost 2 years ago because of ovarian cancer. Unfortunately they can't confirm that this is actually cancer again, but because of my past history, it high probability that it is cancer.
The news was another set back for myself personally as I was ready to close this chapter of my life - the Cancer Chapter - but God has seen fit to allow me to continue this journey. Although it was devastating initially, God has reminded me that He cares for me. The very same verses that ministered to my soul during my first episode of cancer and also the passing of my sweet daughter, has comforted and shielded my heart and guarded my mind from things not Christ honoring; the fear, the despair, the frustration was kept at bay by the very words of God.
Not to mention the abundant blessings that are attached to this trial: One is that God has lead my doctor to be thorough with initiating the scan itself; she didn't need to but praise God she did, otherwise they would not have detected the tumor. Another blessing is that the tumor is only less than half an inch big and this is "the earliest they would have been able to detect the tumor." (Direct quote from my doctor.) Since ovarian cancer is hard to detect until it's too late, this is a miracle in itself. The third blessing is that Mike and I have been praying about what course of action we needed to take in ensuring my health in regards to possibly the cancer coming back; we had leaned on the side of removing my other ovary as a precaution but wanted to wait on the Lord - well basically He's answered that for us.
On June 3rd (tentatively), I will go under the knife once more - Lord willing the last time - to remove my ovary and possibly my uterus. I really didn't want to go under the knife again but to ensure and have peace of mind, God has given us the peace to proceed with this procedure. Thankfully, it will be an out-patient laprascopic type of procedure. I covet your prayers in wisdom for the doctors and a speedy recovery for myself. To God be the glory!
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