Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead"
I Peter 1:3
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
The Peace that Surpasses All.....Cancer?
It seems hard to utter the words "peace" and "cancer" in the same sentence; these words are more antagonistic rather than accede to each other but I can testify that, with Christ and only in Christ, can one have peace in the midst of having cancer.
In all honesty, I thought I was done with this word but it seems fitting for God to allow me to once again go thru this trial. A couple of weeks ago, my doctor ordered me to have an ultrasound as a precaution and if the scan came out normal, I wouldn't have to see my Oncologist but once a year. It was a blessing in disguise because during that scan, the doctor found 2 tumors in my left ovary; my right ovary was taken out almost 2 years ago because of ovarian cancer. Unfortunately they can't confirm that this is actually cancer again, but because of my past history, it high probability that it is cancer.
The news was another set back for myself personally as I was ready to close this chapter of my life - the Cancer Chapter - but God has seen fit to allow me to continue this journey. Although it was devastating initially, God has reminded me that He cares for me. The very same verses that ministered to my soul during my first episode of cancer and also the passing of my sweet daughter, has comforted and shielded my heart and guarded my mind from things not Christ honoring; the fear, the despair, the frustration was kept at bay by the very words of God.
Not to mention the abundant blessings that are attached to this trial: One is that God has lead my doctor to be thorough with initiating the scan itself; she didn't need to but praise God she did, otherwise they would not have detected the tumor. Another blessing is that the tumor is only less than half an inch big and this is "the earliest they would have been able to detect the tumor." (Direct quote from my doctor.) Since ovarian cancer is hard to detect until it's too late, this is a miracle in itself. The third blessing is that Mike and I have been praying about what course of action we needed to take in ensuring my health in regards to possibly the cancer coming back; we had leaned on the side of removing my other ovary as a precaution but wanted to wait on the Lord - well basically He's answered that for us.
On June 3rd (tentatively), I will go under the knife once more - Lord willing the last time - to remove my ovary and possibly my uterus. I really didn't want to go under the knife again but to ensure and have peace of mind, God has given us the peace to proceed with this procedure. Thankfully, it will be an out-patient laprascopic type of procedure. I covet your prayers in wisdom for the doctors and a speedy recovery for myself. To God be the glory!
In all honesty, I thought I was done with this word but it seems fitting for God to allow me to once again go thru this trial. A couple of weeks ago, my doctor ordered me to have an ultrasound as a precaution and if the scan came out normal, I wouldn't have to see my Oncologist but once a year. It was a blessing in disguise because during that scan, the doctor found 2 tumors in my left ovary; my right ovary was taken out almost 2 years ago because of ovarian cancer. Unfortunately they can't confirm that this is actually cancer again, but because of my past history, it high probability that it is cancer.
The news was another set back for myself personally as I was ready to close this chapter of my life - the Cancer Chapter - but God has seen fit to allow me to continue this journey. Although it was devastating initially, God has reminded me that He cares for me. The very same verses that ministered to my soul during my first episode of cancer and also the passing of my sweet daughter, has comforted and shielded my heart and guarded my mind from things not Christ honoring; the fear, the despair, the frustration was kept at bay by the very words of God.
Not to mention the abundant blessings that are attached to this trial: One is that God has lead my doctor to be thorough with initiating the scan itself; she didn't need to but praise God she did, otherwise they would not have detected the tumor. Another blessing is that the tumor is only less than half an inch big and this is "the earliest they would have been able to detect the tumor." (Direct quote from my doctor.) Since ovarian cancer is hard to detect until it's too late, this is a miracle in itself. The third blessing is that Mike and I have been praying about what course of action we needed to take in ensuring my health in regards to possibly the cancer coming back; we had leaned on the side of removing my other ovary as a precaution but wanted to wait on the Lord - well basically He's answered that for us.
On June 3rd (tentatively), I will go under the knife once more - Lord willing the last time - to remove my ovary and possibly my uterus. I really didn't want to go under the knife again but to ensure and have peace of mind, God has given us the peace to proceed with this procedure. Thankfully, it will be an out-patient laprascopic type of procedure. I covet your prayers in wisdom for the doctors and a speedy recovery for myself. To God be the glory!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Be Still My Soul
Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.
The above are two stanzas from one of my favorite hymns "Be Still My Soul." Although I can't get into too much detail of what's going on with us right now, I can testify that God is SOVEREIGN!
Below is a snip-it of an article from Spurgeon that my pastor shared with me:
"He can overrule my trials in such a way that out of confusion he will bring order; and from seeming evil, produce lasting good. He who bridles the storm, and puts the bit in the mouth of the tempest, surely he can restrain my trial, and keep my sorrows in subjection."
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